Sunday, May 31, 2009

looking through old photos and cried

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yeah…..do rmb there were more but cant find em…and not just missing this trip...missing alot of other things...but dun think i will be lucky enuf to have those times back with me...you have totally changed....right now just busy mugging for exams…stressed out on projects….missing the old times and outings…most importantly u….why u sleeping babe…lol ok fine 4.am u wont sleep then wat…haha danced with her so awesome…i love you

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Update like finally???...YOU WISH

Well some goody newz.......weeeeeeeee made it to the semi finals....ok tats old news....FINE.....weee...we made it to the finals.....top 4 ok....hahhaha.....proud of my team...put in a lot of efforts and sleepless nights.....one final gd news...lol new girl...lol...kinda like her...have fun talking to her...and lalalalala....sad thing she flying off sooon....which brings me to ranting time!!!!

why aaaah why aaaaah!!!!....WHY THE FUCKING WHY WHY!!!!....all good things are snatched away from me.....first you sent my brother to australia....i neva complain.....then u took my opportunity to go to Australia to go to my brother away...got a bit hurt but neva complain...then i came to a poly...not bad not bad...a bit of happiness....got close to a number of them....and then again fuking shit jealous rite!!!....take my happiness away again.....NVM tolerated tat also..ok fine settled down.....somewhere in yr 2...broke up...worse thing nobody gave a fukin damn....no one saw my saddnes...soon there were a few break ups in front of me.....i gave a damn...i cared...others cared for the other break-upers...yes wateva fuking word i gonna use....they all cared....where was tat in my break up...WHERE!!!!....then met another girl...not bad u become gd boy already giving me gal...became close frenz with her....tat one also cannot see my happiness....must take her away rite....fine tolerate tat also..BUT HOW MUCH U WANT ME TO TOLERATE!!!!....i am just a bloody kid alrite...later had 4 ppl damn close to my heart...soon even they died out, went away....WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERYONE GET LOVED BY ME BUT NONE IN RETURN FOR ME......WHY!!!....NVM...end of yr 2....cgpa dropped..there....AGAIN!!!...all u wanna give me is unhappiness rite...first make me sad from all this....take away my happiness...then after tat drop my bloody cgpa which i worked so hard to pull up!!!....nvm consoled myself yr 3 got chance...perfect 4.0 is all i need....yup tats it...ONLY 4.0...yr 3 groupwork...there was neva a bloody day that all both my group members were present in class!!!.....how u tell me u tell me HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO GET 4.0 LIKE TAT....speaking of 4.0....how hard i try and at the end i find out i am just standing rite at the doorstep of top 30%...u just love to pick on me rite....basket wait till i come up there so gonna murder u ...just 2 wks back finally u did something nice to me...u sent a girl in my life...shefali...got close to her too...saw her almost everyday....THEN YOU(cuz u control our hearts) MADE ME FALL FOR HER!!!.....AND YOU TOOK HER AWAY FROM ME!!!....yes you...sending her to US...wat fuk u want me to long distance relationship isit .....basket....


WHERE THE FUK IS THE LOVE I DESERVE....I WANNA SEE IT...NOT JUST HEAR EH THEY CARE LA OR I CARE LA....FUKIN SHOW ME!!! LIKE HOW I SHOW!!!...
yes i may sound wateva fukin shit stupid or wat.....but my heart is in pain!!..u felt it....i doubt so....

you might think i am being selfish...think again...am i?....dun tell me i dun even fukin deserve this