looking through old photos and cried

 

yeah…..do rmb there were more but cant find em…and not just missing this trip...missing alot of other things...but dun think i will be lucky enuf to have those times back with me...you have totally changed....right now just busy mugging for exams…stressed out on projects….missing the old times and outings…most importantly u….why u sleeping babe…lol ok fine 4.am u wont sleep then wat…haha danced with her so awesome…i love you

Update like finally???...YOU WISH

Well some goody newz.......weeeeeeeee made it to the semi finals....ok tats old news....FINE.....weee...we made it to the finals.....top 4 ok....hahhaha.....proud of my team...put in a lot of efforts and sleepless nights.....one final gd news...lol new girl...lol...kinda like her...have fun talking to her...and lalalalala....sad thing she flying off sooon....which brings me to ranting time!!!!

why aaaah why aaaaah!!!!....WHY THE FUCKING WHY WHY!!!!....all good things are snatched away from me.....first you sent my brother to australia....i neva complain.....then u took my opportunity to go to Australia to go to my brother away...got a bit hurt but neva complain...then i came to a poly...not bad not bad...a bit of happiness....got close to a number of them....and then again fuking shit jealous rite!!!....take my happiness away again.....NVM tolerated tat also..ok fine settled down.....somewhere in yr 2...broke up...worse thing nobody gave a fukin damn....no one saw my saddnes...soon there were a few break ups in front of me.....i gave a damn...i cared...others cared for the other break-upers...yes wateva fuking word i gonna use....they all cared....where was tat in my break up...WHERE!!!!....then met another girl...not bad u become gd boy already giving me gal...became close frenz with her....tat one also cannot see my happiness....must take her away rite....fine tolerate tat also..BUT HOW MUCH U WANT ME TO TOLERATE!!!!....i am just a bloody kid alrite...later had 4 ppl damn close to my heart...soon even they died out, went away....WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERYONE GET LOVED BY ME BUT NONE IN RETURN FOR ME......WHY!!!....NVM...end of yr 2....cgpa dropped..there....AGAIN!!!...all u wanna give me is unhappiness rite...first make me sad from all this....take away my happiness...then after tat drop my bloody cgpa which i worked so hard to pull up!!!....nvm consoled myself yr 3 got chance...perfect 4.0 is all i need....yup tats it...ONLY 4.0...yr 3 groupwork...there was neva a bloody day that all both my group members were present in class!!!.....how u tell me u tell me HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO GET 4.0 LIKE TAT....speaking of 4.0....how hard i try and at the end i find out i am just standing rite at the doorstep of top 30%...u just love to pick on me rite....basket wait till i come up there so gonna murder u ...just 2 wks back finally u did something nice to me...u sent a girl in my life...shefali...got close to her too...saw her almost everyday....THEN YOU(cuz u control our hearts) MADE ME FALL FOR HER!!!.....AND YOU TOOK HER AWAY FROM ME!!!....yes you...sending her to US...wat fuk u want me to long distance relationship isit .....basket....

WHERE THE FUK IS THE LOVE I DESERVE....I WANNA SEE IT...NOT JUST HEAR EH THEY CARE LA OR I CARE LA....FUKIN SHOW ME!!! LIKE HOW I SHOW!!!...

yes i may sound wateva fukin shit stupid or wat.....but my heart is in pain!!..u felt it....i doubt so....

you might think i am being selfish...think again...am i?....dun tell me i dun even fukin deserve this

Just feel like ranting~~

I am so tired of this dumb life....i have enough of taking care of others....its shit boring to just listen to the same shit over and over again....1 day u say u r in love with her..and the next day u say i think she using me...and the bloody next time u say i think i will still talk to her la...make up ur nananoing mind...and stop reminding me of her...shes a bitch and i noe it...

so sick and tired of everything....lookin at people happy makes feel like those are all liars wearing a mask...life is like so full of crap la...its just damn true wen they say u need a true partner, that friend who will understand u the most...i am sick of looking at others peoples problems already cuz wen it comes to my all i get is just a smirk...why cuz by default i am the happiest guy on this earth wat...making everyone happy...how can a person of such kind be having problems...

i so miss my last time life of doing concerts...so effing fun...envy my brother who gets the opportunity to do this like at least twice a year....missing him damn badly now...so many things to tell him...missing my cousins...why am i seperated from everyone!!!!.....my 2 mths of holidays have passed and i din do shit...alrite i might have some fun...but i want way more...why not...by default i am the happiest kid in town wat....

just wanna tell everyone out there....love those who love you.....and stop dreaming would she be mine....or would he be mine...take some time to look down there...there is some one below u who loves u as much....

to add on more to all this...my time table has only 1 elective...it bloody sux...nonsensical idiots cant u all do anything rite?!?!....cant anything go rite in life.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh

Good and bad mood

Heyyos...backie with an update...there are quite a number of things up now....first of few good news...Got into the Imagine Cup semi-finals....top 16 sia.....haha lol....well pretty happy about it...now gotta work hard...ok another happy thing....i booked like dunno how many slots for driving and its just damn happening...even cheryl has got to drive already and i saw her drive....not bad my sis can drive...meaning she is pretty gd...i cleared another lesson today but i chose the most wrong time....830 in the morning....now i noe how it feels like to drive super early in the morning...how my bro and dad feel when they drive early...its freaking tiring...you are driving with half your mind asleep and tat too in a congested traffic....so moral no more booking lessons for morning sessions...another good news well i am very happy for xin yi...YAY jie...lol...ok so much for good news....lol ok
BAD news.....haha...ok there is this aunty in the neighbouring condo and i think she has an attitude problem...few days back i just went to play soccer....i just came back from drivin so proceedo to the condo...next thing i knew i was called and started recieving lecture...2 of my other frenz were recieving theirs too....one of them just argued with the aunty cuz she was going over the limit and raising her voice for no apparent reason while we were talking to her nicely...she did some damn stupid things la...later we just left and talked among ourselves....and the aunty was like going arnd telling all the other mums about us especially the guy who argued....just wanna kill her and at the same time cant stop laughing at her dumbness la...next morning i wake up to the dumbest lines ever...my mum woke me up saying is your friend a bad boy does he bla bla bla???....i am like first thing in the morning..ok fine afternoon...lol for me is morning wat...lol....so anyways....this??...so i went like tat aunty called you is it???....haha bullseye...freaking bad mood la...to add on to tat, close frenz are getting moody and sad nowadays...cheer up people...i told u...life is not about lamenting on the past or just becoming moody due to problems...they come and go...tell the problems...take away my troubles and go...just take and go....come on be happy alrite.....*smiless*....(^_-)

very tired from todays driving...and i think by far todays instructor was my best instructor till date...wish to have him more often...next lesson 21st!!!FTT on 23rd!!!YAY!!!!.......lol..okok lets see if more spamming on CDC webby works if not gd afternooon and sweeet dreamzzz...ooooh ya cheryls grandparents are awesome...so fun to talk to them...hehe...okok buh bye

Am really touched!!!

Hellossssssss......

haha finally back with an update...haha....lol....pretty busy doing nothing....haha ok i screwed up my whole body clock again...i have become the machine again....but this time a more siao machine....cuz there are times when i just sleep for damn few hours....
errr ok i have gone to the beach a few times....and i was pretty extreme....first day go jog....jogged for quite a bit....was in the beach for 3 hrs.....yea but during tat time i took some awesomely B-E-A-Utiful pictures of the scenery....following tat period of time errr i went for another beach morning....this time instead of jogging i did roller blading....roller bladed 4hrs non stop....and i rly mean non stop....guess where i bladed till...changi park connector....on my way there i think i was too excited to feel tired although ya was pretty dehydrated....didnt even drink a sip on my way there....it was so bad that when i heard a bird chirping i pointed at it and said shut up i noe u can fly no need to extra....haha yea had gone mad....also while going there, intentions of going to skate club chalet was there....but had no idea where it was and also if they are even awake...so well when i U-turned, i was too tired so i stopped for a while and removed my blades....and i regretted taking them off...i screamed in pain...cuz my left foot was kinda how to say compressed???.....tat sudden freedom just screwed my foot up....rest for a while and made my journey back home.....had multiple stops to satisfy my thirst....haha...
.same afternoon went for skate club chalet...BBQ was fun.....bro in laws kebabs were awesome...and fish marinated with xy jies magical hands tasted tooo good.....lol....and surprisingly jie hates to touch fish...the chalet was super fun la....like a sense of belonging there...and my other piggy jie was SLEEPING....lol yea dun blame her...she didnt sleep much...lol...both my jies left early...lol i stayed on and played games...lol we played circle of death.....and man tat is just tooo goood...class chalet confirm playing tat game.....i was kinda the winner cuz i didnt kanna much penalty in fact just one penalty....after tat walked one of the skate members to the bus stop and walked home from there....
very next day my dear cheryl jie did something very touching for me...we both logged in to my CDC acct and started spamming for cancellers...she was so nice to have sit down the whole day and book close to 6 lessons for me....even when i had gone down for my festival celebration(talk about it after this), she called and asked me whether wanna book this slot....it was just very sweet of her la....was very touched as she litteraly sat there the whole day refreshing the pages to get me dates.....THANKS A LOT SIS....MUAX.....it even made me tear at the end of the day from wat she did....=)
Ok as i was saying the festival which i was celebrating...its called Holi....basically wat we do is play with colours....we would apply coloured powdered on faces of others....and those who wear white clothes would regret it cuz their clothes would not be white at the end of the day....so i went for 2 days....saturday and sunday....sunday was the more fun one as there more kids of our age and we were just having superb fun....we were playing in the field...so there was mud formed meaning people would be rolled or thrown onto the mud...haha its all in the name of fun....after all this celebration comes the our real fun....going into some random condo and jumping into their pool with all the colors and mud we were in....and then go into the next condo.....so its like real fun lol.....this year it was better cuz it rained so more fun...but it also means catch a cold time....
today went for my driving lesson booked by cheryl....lol....but first helped her change to sch and also apply PDL for her....no fair she go bugis after tat...lol i haven watch eng movie in theatre for so long...and as usual those who promised me dun make it on the actual day....bleah...i passed yet another lesson....lol...came back home...me and cheryl start spamming CDC website again....got few earlier dates so i canceled those exp lessons...and OMFG my acct left with $100+ only...gotta top up soon....i already spent $1200+ on all lessons and test tat i have booked and gone for....my my.....alrite now here are pictures to spam!!!...Get awwwwed by it....LOL.....