Dunno wat to say...have been feeling down since like wks but i might just be too gd an actor that no one sees it, and they see all others who are down....
i dun want u to lose a close fren....like why wud i?....yeah i noe i have been very selfish and yup i have done things that will make you and some others angry....but please come on tell me,i am sure you do noe how i felt....cuz thats what u felt too, when i used to ignore you....seriously i am not an asshole who will stoop so low....i noe i did some stupid things, and yes i noe i was wrong....i agree...but has anyone tried to think why i did that...yes i am not her boyfren, but i dun wanna lose her either, but it just seems that well the process has started...i dunno...just its in my fate to lose ppl...i maybe selfish and jealous, but who wudnt be in circumstances like this?i didnt say anything cuz i noe i was wrong....but some stuff u said did hurt me....u noe me better...
its has been more than 1mth and i have not seen that care or smth i kinda wanted from her....barely spoken even 100 words to her in like 1mth plus....
i feel like a book in a bookshelf only opened when needed...-quoted from fren
exactly how i have been feeling, but sometimes even feel am i even needed?
i have been dying the same death over and over again everyday....i have no objection on what you do....and i have no rightz anyway.....but what i have been experiencing since so long, what did i do to deserve this...yes i have bullied you, but that was lovingly bully....but i get hurt to the max everyday....but i dun show it....i dun want any sympathy....i want that care to come naturally....but dunno why have this feeling, it will never come....dunno why me, but haiz....ya ya i am the bad guy....the worst guy born on earth right....haiz....
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dunno, ur "brother" just missed you...
i dunno la...its just depressing and hurtful la... :(
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