over the past few days i have gotten scoldings and lectures like everyday....i have had enuf of it...save meeee....ok fine i wont drive the car till my test...25days more...
ok lets begin...
i rmb i told my jie long back, tat i was not happy...and she was like you are never happy wat...tat statement hit me hard....recently i was just reading dolls blog and i was like okaaaaaay.....to her i am this emo guy....there are so many signs given to me already to force me to get over with it and move along....i just cant and i dunno why
sign 1...number of phone calls from her reduced
sign 2...meet ups with her reduced
sign 3..our chats started to become boring...last time there used to be things for me to talk but then it was all gone...all i hear is about her bf
sign 4...not hearing her voice anymore
sign 5...not seeing her anymore....wateva webcam we did...there was neva this time wen i felt tat i am looking at my doll...it was always looking at someones gf...
sign 6...even tat gone
sign 7...wateva lil chats we have are the same ones....how u...bla bla...and suddenly bf....bla bla bla bla...bf...bla bla bla...bf or smth related to him..tat smth to chat for is all gone...
sign 8...the total number of signs accumulated to prove tat jai pls enuf is enuf...get over...
ppl say tat the closest person to u is the person whom u share all ur stuff with...in this case the award goes to u my dear blog...so close to u share everything with u but at the end i cant even give u a hug for stayin by me all this while...ok i myself dunno wat i am saying...gone cracked...
my fren told me this....girls are like buses...when one is gone another comes in just a short while....but in my case i was thrown off a moving bus...i was not even prepared for it...landed on the ground and bled all over...in all cases the bus slows down stops and then u get off....mine threw me out wen it was movin along ECP...my fren told me it took him 5mth to get oover his loss...my case its not even 3wks...
i am still thinking on how i am gonna save myself from this...she always said she liked one quality of mine...truthfullness...and wateva truth i said always made her happy and smile....hmmm today my truth proably wont have the same effect...like they say the truth is always bitter...
i am actually contemplating over the fact if i shud become tat jerk...
as much as i hate the smell of smoke and smokers, recently while looking at my socceroos smoke i just had this weird temptation to smoke and so call get this saddness away...yea tat wud then make me hate myself for smokin...but like i am already not hatin myself for makin my life miserable....dun worry guys i din touch any cigerrate...i am still a virgin smoker.....
yawns...anyways smth to look forward to...transformers releasing....harry potter releasin...and 2wks time blood donation....dunno why i am looking forwar so much to this...hopefully if this even works...wateva sad thoughts i have would be drained out through my blood and given to tat person who gets it...B+(be positive) ye tats my bld grp....so take this sadness and give it to tat needy....yea but we all noe this wont work.....
~tooot gaya dil tooot gaya~
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