Free lessons in how to screw up things

Haha yup yup...i am giving away free lessons in how things can be screwed up or just  do anything to make ur own life miserable...haha yup back to the slight emo posts of mine....haha during the last day of jap exchange, i sent 2 smses to screw up my life....well but theres a saying:

 When you are hurt or down, you don't do things with your brain!
-jai

haha yes so i just did stupid things of sending 2 dumb smses just to hurt myself even more....like comeon do i have a problem with life that i keep calling for 1 new trouble every mth.....Saded...anyways just finished watching a movie....alrite alrite movie...time for update....

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17th Oct, Friday

Super super slack day....i woke up at 1:30 pm with a bad bite on my ear....did a soft tug on cuzzies hair for biting me....apart from tat didnt do much....played carrom...my fingers are hurting and to add on to that my nails were cut pretty short so more painfull....after tat just watched teeeveee and went down for soccer and swim.....after tat come back home slack watch teeveee....ya tats kinda abt it....

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past few days i have been wondering , will poly be the same again....when sch reopens, will i still be the same jai as before...will i still be accpeted by them after doing those stupid things....kinda hurt 2 ppl in the past 1 wk....am i bad or am i bad....however hard i try to make ppl happy or myself happy, somehow or another, i will end up making them sad/angry or making myself sad/jealous and all....it seems tat its all over....i just so wish someone shoots me at my temple....have screwed up big time :(