wat goes around comes around

yesh indeed wat goes around comes around..and tat too like within a yr confirm...frankly speaking these past 3 days werent the best of my life....or shud i say guess were the worst of my life....have recieved the punishments that were meant for me due to the hurt and sorrows i caused this yr...heck i wasnt even myself in the japanese exchange programme....ok maybe a bit of myself during the first few hrs or so....and then suddenly i just felt this emptiness in me...like my soul has left me and i am a walking life less body...and the same thing happened during the sentosa outing....merely a walking zombie with no sense....bloody hell i only spoke maximum 100 words in the span of wednesday and thurday....but well i am just suffering the punishment tat is meant for me....sudden feeling of lonliness....

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13 Oct, Monday

Well was suppose to have swimming with jie at 10am...however we finally met in the late afternoon..read our books and then swam...played martial arts, talked underwater, fooled arnd and enjoyed...then drop her to bus-stop...ok took a slighly long way, cuz i just wanted to talk to my sister....felt very lonely dat day.....came back home slack a while, and recieved my first punishment....mood became from a happy boy who spent time with sister to a sad boy who just lost something....i myself had no idea wat to reply cuz i was in shock....then just went sleep soon afterwards.....

14th Oct, Tuesday

Truth finally sank in me and i noe it was all my fault.....anyways didnt do much just slacked with cousins as they were bugging me to stay with them...was actually planning to go out with classmates....yea so just spent time with them and slept slighlty earlier than normal....

15th Oct, Wednesday

Woke up and left for sch....helped out in some stuff and soon Japanese Students came...did my super short presentation and after tat my world became gloomy again...yeah was feeling kinda normal before presentation...although off mood but not so much as after presentation when it was time to show them around the school....recieved the taste of my own medicine....yup wateva i did last time was exactly coming back to me....just with more power due to interest rate....just controlled my sadness and took it as my punishment....cudnt stay longer in my grp or i wud have killed myself...so just walked around by myself and joined other grps every now and then.....evening went off slighly early....came back home dozed off in my sofa due to emoness and tiredness....9+ wake up to go to party...came back at 12+....read my book...eyes were a bit watery so went to sleep....

16th Oct, Thursday

Well today we were supposed to bring the students on a tour...kinda whole bloody day i was emoing.....woke up in the morning with a jolt by a phone call...left home for bugis....after tat pick up the students and then went to Sentosa...ok i spent super little today....less than $20....anyways dunno why whenever i was with my grp i wud be in my own gloomy sad effing world, just emoing.....first they went to underwater world...was not interested so stayed outside....henry grp went to fort canning....so jb, ky, henry and me just fooled among ourselves...i played with a python....took pic also...henry has it.....after tat my grp was having lunch in the food court....food was very ex....jb, ky and me decided to save money on the food in the food court...it was $7 for just a laksa?!?!?!....den my grp went to dolphin lagoon while jb, ky, henry and me went subway for our sandwich....have subway anytime compared to the price in food court....after tat henry and ky watched the 4d theatre while i went off with jb back to vivo... i had mango kachang or wateva its callled....then jb went home while the other grps went to orchard....so just waited alone at the mrt station for my own grp to come back....once they were back it was only my own grp....so we went to Marina Square.....yes and my emoing started in full blast again....gosh hated myself for it....punishment was just too much....i really cud have killed myself today....emo emo me....walked around at the back of the grp, silently crying in my heart...there were times if i am not wrong maybe i was a bit rude too......not sure....GOSH I CUDNT EVEN SEE EYE TO EYE WITH MY SIS!!!....anyways finally the other grps turned up!!!.....talked around with them....then they played bowling....i only played 1 game which was their second...my score 85......bad but oh well.....after tat well we went arcading....one of my grp students is a super pro in playing the arcade version of guitar...i only played 2 games of daytona....was alrite....then everyonce walked together to some place....i dunno where cuz half way thru i just cudnt take it anymore and left for home....bussed home....and here i am.....so well dunno wats gonna be of my future....i half screwed it with my hands....sad saded suffering my own sins...

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well yeah tats pretty much wat happened in the past days...oh ya time-table is out...
Monday 9-13 study...then break...2-4 then go home
Tuesday 9-13 study then go home...
Wednesday 11-13 study then break till 4..4-6 study then go home
Thurday 11-13 study then break...2-6 study then go home
Friday 9 -11 study then break 12 to 4 study then go home

yeah so the time table isnt tat bad...seems alrite.....
ok chao....hope to be emo-free soon....sorry to everyone and anyone whom i angered or hurt in my life especially in the past 2 days...