will miss you but wondering why should i

home alone day number 3....well lets talk about wednesday.....day was not at all great until i took the car out for some relivement out of which got freaking scolded like nobody by Sonu.....there came a point in the day wen i asked myself...why am i liking her....she cares for me i care for her but tats it...our paths are so never gonna cross, and i really wonder why din it...well cuz she loves my fren...and it was proven at night wen i had to wait for a bloody 1 hr for my dear couple to come back from their talk...like why call me down in the first place if u were gonna walk somewhere else with him and come ages later...so anyway took the car out drove to parkway get cake...almost banged a lady driver and got scolded even more....just not my day la....haha u think today was bad...nah nah...

home alone day 4....

well dolls birthday...took the cake to the park...cut cake pic bla bla....then leisure park...its feels so effed up wen 2 ppl whom u care so much about literally in ur face, heart, soul, everywhere kick u...yea i was shattered, broken, disgusted...she noes i like her....he noes i like her....and they are holding hands and mushy mushy with each other right in my face...it was so #@$#@ up....like wtf am i suppose to do....i cant walk next to them and see tat happening....i cant walk at the back and see a show going in front of me....so i walked in front....walk infront also then getting shouted at for being emo...tat wat you want me to do?? dance at wats happenin....totally odd...i had told her one thing tat i would neva hurt her...and i swear i have neva done so...she promised me she wud not either...there you go...million deaths in 1 day...i was asked by her over the pass few days, wats with me...i just din wanna hurt her...sry i cant

and today was her flight to US...i so cudnt be bloody bothered at all...yes i am gonna be missing her loads...but its just yet another day in history where i have been stabbed rite in my heart...after all the things tat has happened this wk....i guess the wk couldnt get any better...

the only good thing tat happened today was out with kor....went for the movie, land of the lost....superb movie made me laugh so bad....perfect diversion of mind...had some nice talk with kor too....soooooo long no proper talk with any of my siblings..i missing u all bloody loads leh...and yes i do feel like a bastard of kinda using him as a support for todays dumb events...but i was convincing him to get out since ytd...today i just had another extra reason to do so...but kor genuinely speakin no intention of using u....

and ya kor....rmb u said u felt lucky ur situation wasnt as bad as mine...i am happy u realized...cherish all those happiness u had...work on it....success will definately come.....dun worry...i noe is easy to say all these...but well i am trying hard too..

anyways the next gal in line....pls come AND STAY!!!!....